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We Are Not Abandoned

 

 

In children's church we have been studying Paul.

 

Do you know the story of Paul and Silas, when they were in a prison?


 

After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded
to guard them carefully. Upon receiving such orders,
he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks.
About midnight,
Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were
listening to them.
Suddenly, there was a violent earthquake…
Acts 16:23-26

 

 

Wait. Stop right there! They had been beaten? Thrown into prison? Their feet were in stocks??

 

They were praying. Yeah, I would be too. But they were singing hymns to God?? Hmmm…would I be doing that? If I were bleeding, sore, dirty, threatened, confined…would I be praising Him?

 

Most likely I would be crying, praying for deliverance, feeling miserable, consumed with self-concern -- asking others to pray for me… all night.
But they just praised Him…and others were listening.

 

This one thing about Paul and Silas has been on my mind for awhile now.

 

As most of you know, we have been on the weirdest journey. It's so strange, in fact, that I hesitate to write because at this time, our lives are consumed with hospital visits, medical testing, urine samples, wheelchairs, and blood draws. Yet IS it strange, really?


 

Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed!
I Peter 4:12-13

 

 

Whether it's strange or not, I haven't been writing because I don't want my articles to be consumed with tales of our sicknesses and our trials! That has to be boring for you. How can it be uplifting? But…all I know to write about is what's going on in our lives. And this is what's going on! God is teaching me through all of it, as monotonous and constant as it is. So...at least let me give you an update.

 

Elijah has been our main concern over these past few months. The morning of January 1 he called me into the bathroom and asked what was wrong with his urine. It was completely red, full of blood. Looking at it made me feel sick! I had no clue what to do, so I looked up on the internet, "What to do if your child has blood in his urine." All the information was the same: call the pediatrician. So I did. Because it was a holiday, it took awhile to get through to someone. They told me to go to straight to the ER. Blah.

 

Thus has begun our journey with "urology", "nephrology", "gastrology", "eternal doctor's appointments and test-ology", complete "frustration-ology"! Poor Elijah. Though they have poked and prodded and taken sample after sample, and though they ARE finding blood in his urine and they HAVE discovered strange bowel and bladder problems, they canNOT find the reason why.

 

Somehow it seems to be related to this disease that all of our biological children are all struggling with. It's a strand of the thread of sickness that is affecting all of them during this time. Elijah is also experiencing pain in his legs and feet, like Jonah did. There are similarities. It's a common thread.

 

Since this journey of sickness began just a couple of years ago, with Brooklyn's pain and multiple surgeries on her tendons and ligaments and Jonah's breaking bones, I began pulling on this "thread," trying to find the source of all these problems!

 

"Where is this sickness coming from?" I kept asking the Father. "Why won't You just make it go away?"

 

People think we're weird! We have become the kind of family that when people ask what's going on with our children's health, we don't want to say, because it's just toooooo strange. We've reduced our explanation to…

 

"Oh…it's just some sort of weird genetic thing…"

 

We see the physical, biological, genetic pattern. But now I've begun to notice a spiritual pattern. God has truly been teaching me through all of this, though I still don't understand it all. Now you might think this is REALLY strange…like the "weird genetic thing" has begun to affect our brains…but if you are a brother/sister in Christ, hear me out. If you are not a believer in Christ…well…hear me out anyway. God may have a message in this for you. At least I pray He does.

 

We felt such a strong calling to come to Missouri several years ago. Almost 3 years ago. Now that's really amazing for us Lovelace's because we LOVED living in Texas. We were involved in jobs and ministries there that completely "fit" us. You know what I mean? And we were geographically closer to our extended families than we had ever been in our married lives. So a move was random, yet we felt compelled. It was a fire in our bones.

 

 

But if I say, "I will not mention Him or speak any more in His name," His Word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
Jeremiah 20:9

 

 

But as we began our ministry here in St. Louis, NOTHING was easy! We couldn't sell our house in Texas (we STILL have not sold our house in Texas), we had trouble adjusting, we had trouble finding friends and activities to be involved in, we felt sooo different, we were in a ministry position where we just didn't "fit".

 

After more than a year, finally, things began to "click," just a little. Brooklyn began leading Bible studies for young girls and seeing God changing lives, Chase began playing guitar and singing praise and worship music to whoever would listen, Jonah began meeting new people and talking to our neighbors about the Lord again (which he always did in Texas)….we as a family began talking about the joy of adoption, multi-racial families, family ministry…God began opening doors! People began coming to Christ!

 

That's when every rug we stood on began to come out from under us…we lost our ministry job, our biological kids began losing their health, we lost the house we were living in…if you have read previous articles, then you know these stories.

 

Our oldest began having some serious medical problems (his is a different journey yet to be written). Brooklyn developed heart problems. Chase began having pain in his wrists and hands, so that he has difficulty playing piano or guitar, Jonah began spending more and more time in his wheelchair and at home.

 

Elijah seemed totally unaffected however. I began calling him, "My one healthy biological child".

 

Then, he came to us crying, saying that God had been speaking to his heart. He needed Jesus. He knelt right there, at the end of our bed and prayed his own prayer, giving his life to Jesus.

 

Awesome!!!

 

He's been telling me ever since, "I just feel different Mom! I really do have Jesus living inside of me! I'm not alone! Jesus gave His life and His blood for me!"

 

It was soon after that that the blood began to appear in His urine. Any connection with the blood of Christ? There is a connection because now Elijah has developed that same target on his back that all of us as believers have.

 

We belong to God. We now have an enemy, Satan, who wants to destroy us. Peter knew about it -- he wrote about it so that we wouldn't be ignorant…

 

 

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy, the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.
Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are
undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
I Peter 5:8-9

 

 

Believers all over the world know about this! These attacks on the Lovelace's are nothing new! We are nothing weird or special, and we are certainly NOT "super spiritual"! The enemy is attacking all over the world -- and it is becoming more intense as we approach the end of time on this earth. Satan our enemy is "hitting below the belt", where it really hurts.

 

It hurts TERRIBLY to see my babies go through all of this. It hurts to be told they have degenerative diseases, and it hurts that I carry the disease, yet have no health problems whatsoever. It hurts when they cry because of the pain or become discouraged, and I can't make it go away.

 

It hurts.

 

But it does not defeat us. Do you hear me? It does not defeat us!

 

Look all around! There is pain and suffering everywhere, among ALL believers!

 

What about with you? Do you sincerely believe that Jesus is the Christ? Do you live by the Truth? Then look behind you. There is a target on your back. You have become an enemy of Satan.

 

But something that we must consider and REMEMBER! Satan can do nothing that God does not allow. God is allowing this time of trial and suffering. Is He allowing it in your life too? Why?

 

I don't have all the answers. But when I'm listening, Paul and Silas are teaching me. God is teaching me. I want to talk more about the "why" next time.

 

 

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;
persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed!
2 Corinthians 4:8-9














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