and God's Faithfulness
Our van is working! It's a
miracle! Unbeknownst to us, some families from our church
got together and decided to surprise us by having our old
van repaired. Several thousand dollars later, we now are
able to go places together as a family. Truly this was a
gift from some special friends. Truly this was a gift from
We prayed. We waited. God placed
it upon the hearts of His people. God gave.
good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the
Our house in Texas still hasn't
sold. Finally a family has decided to lease it. The realtor
commented to us, "This is the first time ever that
a family walked in and actually liked your house!"
Sigh. They moved in this month, but then the plumbing backed
up -- not once but SEVERAL times -- and there was quite
an expense to get the house in "working order"
again. Admittedly this house has been a burden for us! The
last two families that leased the house were not trustworthy
and we suffered some disheartening financial setbacks as
a result of their dishonesty. Many times we have been frustrated
and unsure of what to do in this situation.
in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own
We continue to see people come
to Christ at our church. One lady walked into the worship
center and said to me matter-of-factly,
"I can't wait another minute! I need Jesus in my life
now. How can I accept Jesus? I'm ready!"
Another has said, "I've
been waiting for Jesus all my life!"
And another, "My life
will never be the same. Oh, the years I've wasted!"
will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your
"I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and
you back from captivity…"
A couple of weeks ago, Jonah
came bounding down the stairs and lost his footing. I didn't
actually see him fall, but I heard his cry. It was the kind
of cry that causes a mother to panic. After a trip to the
emergency room and an x-ray of his back, the doctor said
everything was fine. Several days went by. Jonah was just
too lethargic. He didn't want to move. He ran a high fever.
After an MRI, the orthopedic surgeon found four fractured
vertebrae in Jonah's back. The treatment? Inactivity for
six weeks. Jonah is in a lot of pain. Last night, as he
lay flat on his back, I kissed him goodnight. Tears ran
out of the corners of his eyes and into his ears. I wiped
them away as they fell.
"Why, Mom? Why did this
happen? I'm tired of hurting. I'm bored. I just want to
ride my bike and play outside. I just want to stop hurting!"
I searched for words that would comfort Jonah's little heart.
I silently prayed for wisdom.
you will look back on this awful experience and know that
through all of this, God has taught you something important.
Even though it's hard to understand now, you must trust
Jonah nodded, but the tears
continued to flow. I silently continued to wipe them away.
we know that in all things God works for the good of those
who love Him,
who have been called according to His purpose.
As I pulled Chase's clothes
out of the dryer the other day, I remembered our conversation
of the day before.
"Mom, I'm bustin' outta
my clothes. All my pants are too tight and my shorts are
too short. I just need some new clothes…I'm growing outta
I agreed with him, but reminded
him that money was tight.
"Let's pray and ask God,"
I told Chase. "Remember that verse?"
do not have because you do not ask God.
As I folded my growing boy's
pants, I prayed again. "Father, I know that You know
what Chase needs…"
The next day, I received a
text from a friend. Her grown son was cleaning out his closet.
Did Chase need any clothes?
Tears stung my eyes as I tried
to explain to her how that text was truly an answer to our
why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the
They do not labor or spin.
Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all His splendor
was dressed like one of these.
If that is how God clothes the grass of the field..
…will He not much more clothe you…?
One of the best friends of
my life and my heart passed away a few weeks ago. The kids
have watched me struggle with disappointment and oh, such
Was I crying for her? No. She
struggled for many years with health problems, and she was
such a strong believer. She's in heaven now! She's rejoicing
with the Father and would not want to return to earth if
given the choice.
we are always confident and know that as long as we are
at home in the body
we are away from the Lord.
We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say,
and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with
II Corinthians 5:6-8
Was I crying for her? No. I
was crying for her children. They were such a close family;
they depended on her! I knew that she would be painfully
missed. I wanted to be there for her children -- to hold
them, to comfort them. I couldn't.
I was also crying for me.
You see, I hadn't seen this
close friend, this sister of mine, in ten years! Ten years!
I remember when we had to leave Portugal, due to Chase's
attack. I didn't want to leave! I dreaded telling her that
we would not be able to return. I sat down on my mother's
couch in Texas those ten years ago and dialed her number.
We cried together as I told
"Nao faz mal, querida,"
she said, "we will see each other again. Time will
pass, but we will see each other again."
Why did I love her so much?
She loved Jesus, she loved to sing, she loved to praise
the Lord, she loved to correct my Portuguese, she loved
African children, she loved to laugh and be crazy with me,
she loved to pray, she took my hopes and dreams seriously,
she loved me through my mistakes, she loved my husband and
my children unconditionally, she loved to give me advice,
she loved me unconditionally…
She loved me. Why? I have no
But unconditional love is rare
and precious. Wouldn't you agree?
Just a few months ago, we decided
that it was time to see each other again. Surely if we put
our money together, we thought, we would have enough to
bring her here to St. Louis for a month. She was working
on her traveling visa, her papers…and she would say, "Is
my nest ready? I'm about ready to fly to your house!"
I couldn't wait! Finally, after
ten years! We talked nearly every day, and then…she became
so sick. And she died. Just like that.
in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints.
The day she died, with tears
streaming down my face, I wrote her a message…not really
for her, I guess, but for me. I wanted her to know it was
OK with me that she went to see Jesus instead.
with your final heartbeat, kiss the world good-bye.
Then go in peace and laugh on glory's side!
Fly to Jesus…Fly to Jesus…Fly to Jesus…and live!"1
Good-bye my friend-my sweet sister-I will miss you…
We will see each other again. Time will pass, but we will
see each other again.
Even now, my heart is sad and
the tears flow freely. Oh, how I wanted to see her again,
to laugh with her, to let her hold Chase again, to introduce
her to my other babies! What will her children do without
her? Do her grandchildren have to grow up without knowing
I am so disappointed! Admittedly,
for awhile there, I was angry. Why did God allow this? She
was only 59 years old. Was it really time for her to go?
Be still, and know
that I am God...
Outside my window, where
I have my quiet time, our "giving tree" is budding.
The birds are numerous around our bird house, gathering
twigs and grass for nests to come. Death and suffering may
continue, but life goes on. Through sadness, through trials,
through van repairs and growing children, through broken
backs and broken dreams. I don't always understand.
But God is always faithful.
Then will the eyes of
the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped,
Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue
shout for joy!
He will wipe away every
tear from their eyes.
There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain…
…the ransomed of
the Lord will return…
Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing
will flee away.
Isaiah 35, Revelation 21
Through miracles, mayhem,
joy, and sorrow…
God is faithful.
1 Come To Jesus by Chris
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